
I decided years ago to no longer allow myself to be overcome by fear. My eleven year old grandson has always encouraged me to not only embrace, but also utilize the world of technology which I’d intentionally made every effort to avoid (including cell phones). After seeing my progress since launching my blog on March 28th this year, I was overjoyed when I recieved a notification last week informing me that I’d reacched over five hundred all-time views. While pleased; the excitement isn’t due to views, likes, or followers, it’s because I was able to break down yet another barrier preventing me from moving forward with my goals. It wasn’t my writing that was a concern. Of course I pray and hope that readers will enjoy my work, gain insight by becoming encouraged as well as inspired. The concern was/is my constant struggle with the ability to not only focus but also lack of memory due to epileptic seizures. Learning new concepts that are seemingly basic for many, have proven to be a challenge for me.
I vowed that once I moved into my new apartment in March of 2020 that I would immediately start on my book, paying homage to my mother who I now know has suffered with mental health throughout her life but has never officially been diagnosed. That project came to a sudden halt while research led me to once again question whether or not she is my biological mother. Writing has been therapeutic for me since childhood but even with my daily journal entries, something was missing. As a motivational speaker, I’m always surprised after an event when I’m approached with tears of appreciation because someone was able to relate, shared a sililar experince or simply encouraged by my story. Due to the pandemic, speaking engagements were postponed. Something inside forced me to strongly consider another platform as a way of reaching out and sharing. I attempted blogging during my period of homelessness, but couldn’t afford the time nor effort required especially using a public library computer. So, I finally made the decision to purchase a PC which was a challenge in itself, order some “for dummies” books and get started.
Instantly I was overwhelmed by trying to figure out which was the right computer to purchase. Scrolling through my laptop, I had no clue what the difference was between an “all-in-one” as opposed to the desktops that came with a tower. The images shown were confusing because eventhough it said “all-in-one” there were no keyboards in the images leading me to believe I’d end up spending more money having to buy each individual piece (actually I’m not sure what I was thinking,lol). Thankfully the OfficeMax employee simplified the process and soon I had my computer. Along with that meant a desk and work chair I found for a little of nothing, assembling both by myself. Boom! Now I have a tiny yet sufficient office space, but it’s not time to get to work just yet.
I spent close to a month researching about the world of blogging. I’d heard about it, but didn’t know any details or specifics as to how it’s done. So I began reading. Blogging, Windows 10 and so on “for dummies”. I’ve always had trouble retaining the information I read and I learn best hands-on by simply jumping in and doing it. Once I found a hosting site I like,(after experimenting with a few) then came set up, design, etc. I’ll admit, I did reach a point where I was completely stuck and sought help but soon realized there was so much more I needed to do. My G-son, who was out of the state by now; reminded me as he had on numerous occasions, Youtube has tutorials to teach you practically anything. Still becoming refamilliar with basic functions of the computer like downloading, copy/paste, installing apps, etc I was a bit intimidated with using the computer until he informed me that I didn’t need to use my new PC because I have a “smart” T.V. How? Confused again, what the hell is a “smart” T.V.? That sounded a bit scary. He’d already set it up and programmed the features he knew I would utilize before he left the state. He even went as far as creating a playlist with my favorite songs knowing how I love music while cleaning. Wow, apparently I had everything I needed. Time to start blogging!
Although I have dozens of journals from over the years, filled with material to keep up my blog, for now I’m only posting once a week until I become more familiar with navigating through the site. I spend the week re-writing and structuring those journals in hopes of a smoother read for my audience. I stay mindful of not overwhelming myself posting too often then not being able to keep a set schedule resulting in disappointing those anxiously awaiting my next post. So I ask, please be patient with me, I’m working on it as I take pride in everything I do. Every week when I post, I notice and learn a new features of the site like the ability to translate work in other languages from various regions into english. I am excited by this discovery especially after meeting and hearing the poet Ziaeddin Torabi’s work translated in his native language of farsi. It was a beautiful experience, that initially sparked my interest in works from around the world.
I’m excited about this journey! Writing has always aided in my self care. It’s as if every word that reaches the paper allows me to take back the power that those who trespassed against me attempted to rob me of. Building community and sharing stories as well as experiences with others has been a true blessing. Regardless of where this journey leads me, I am proud of my growth in every aspect of my life. I CAN ONLY FAIL WHEN I DON’T TRY! My experiences are not only for me, but hopefully others as well. I am thankful and appreciate my new blogging family and all of you who have personally reached out to me.
Congratulations 🥳🥳
Many to come… Keep writing!
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Thank you!!!
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Congratulations , Tammy!!! This is just the beginning!1❤️
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Thank you so much Grace for all your support!
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Truly my pleasure.💕🙏💕
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Congrats on overcoming all the technological obstacles to becoming a blogger and, hopefully, to finish writing your book! I’ve only committed to writing a blog post once a week, due to my time constraints. Keep moving forward. You can read about my own frustrations in dealing with the technological demands of self-publishing my second novel in my latest blogpost of June 6th.
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Thank you so much & yes, I look forward to reding about it.
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Enjoy your journey Tammy! There’s nothing to fear but fear itself! Keep on truckin’ baby!!! 🚚✍🏼😎
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Thank you!!
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You’re very welcome! 😊
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Wow! Congrats on this journey. 💜
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Thank you so much. I feel like a kid, I get excited about simple things, lol.
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Congratulations! It feels so amazing and encouraging when you see those achievement numbers in your notifications. I love reading your post. You deserve more reach and soon you will get it. no doubt.
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Wow, thank you so much. I appreciate the encouragement!
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Congratulations! Wonderful. 😊✨
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Thanks a bunch, I appreciate your support!
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You’re most welcome! It’s my complete pleasure. Have a great rest of your week!
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You as well my dear!
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Congratulations on your wonderful journey! 🙂
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Thank so much, I love it! Blessings to you.
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Congrats!!!!!!
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Thank you
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You’re welcome😊
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Anytime!
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Congratulations and well done Tammy and thank you for reaching out I look forward to reading your future posts
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Thank you, I appreciate your support!
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Yes blogging is quite a journey. I don’t know what I would do without it. I’m rooting for you.
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Thanks, I appreciate it my friend. I get lots of help from my grandson, lol.
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Love this post, Tammy. To read about your inspirations, motivations and desire to begin blogging and share your story and stories is wonderful. I look forward to exploring your blog! Congrats! 🙂
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Thank you dearly. I’m learning daily. It took two hours this morning figuring out how to upload a YouTube video to my page. Super simple, just one tiny step I kept missing, lol. The challenges of epilepsy.
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Yes, it can be a lot of trial and error when learning the WordPress system. I understand completely! Sometimes you try to do something for ages and then realise there is actually a specific Widget to do it! Good work for working it out in the end though. 🙂
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I was never great w/ technology to begin with. Only recently got my first cell phone. What little I did know, I’m basically relearning sine the seizures started out of the blue. I thank God for my grandson who has helped me this far, lol.
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Sorry to hear of your unexpected seizures. Are you having fun exploring the cell phone as a new gadget? Your grandson sounds like a wonderful helpful soul 🙂
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He is! He’s s been attending events with my since he was 6 & takes videos of me speaking & doing readings, slideshows for my poetry. He asked me to draw up a contract now that he’s older haha. I hope to leave a legacy for them. Oh & no I rarely use my cell phone, never hear it when I’m out & when it’s at 70 percent, I panic that it’ll die & my G-son laughs at me like omg, hahaha.
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Haha, a contract, that is very cheeky and clever at the same time! And that is so cute about fearing the death of cell phone at 70% 🙂 How wonderful to have him as assistant for your creative endeavours. Will you be posting videos of your poetry reading or slideshows on your blog? I have not done much spoken word at all, but I’d like to get into it.
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I haven’t thought about that & most of the footage was years ago so I’d have to dig them up. I believe their on the flashdrive ( is that right). I use my FB business page to advertise & recently found a video on an old Instagram. Managing all these outlets is exhausting & unfortunately w/ him turning 12 a few days ago ( pre-teen) he doesn’t hang w/ his G-ma as much.
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I thought maybe if you’d like to continue this conversation we could take it to another app, just so your blog post doesn’t get clogged up with our messages of chatter. 🙂
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I ideally exchange email w/ my followers , but I’ve been working since 1am. I’m actually supposed to be napping now but enjoy your day my dear.
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No worries. Thanks for the chat 🙂
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I’m retired, so… I have a bunch of time to read your story, I wish you good luck, see y’a!
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Did you get a good laugh from my struggles with technology? Thankfully my grandson has helped me a lot, lol.
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Sorry, but I tell you the truth, I’m retired 6 months ago, so I really have time to sit on the net and read, listen music, make some tik tok and tweet 🤗👍
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You don’t sound happy about retirement, are you ok?
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This is some tradition from my country… https://vm.tiktok.com/ZMREAsc7C/
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I’ll check it out.
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Wedding, that’s how the bride comes out and go to celebrate
with godparents and guests at the salon 🥂👍
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Oh great, I was just about to Google it.
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congratulations..
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Lol, thank you! It’s been a bit challenging, but I’m determined 💕
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